My Walk

As a relatively new Christian, much of my life was lived not thinking about the consequences of my actions. Instead I had a "live for the moment" attitude chasing the next big adventure or party with my friends often adopting their interest and enthusiasm as my own. The problem I kept running into was the hangover, a real life, tangible result of my actions. Cause and effect leading me to my knees on many of those occasions, and it wasn't to pray (ever hear the term porcelain god?). So unknowingly, seeds were being planted in my consciousness that there are always reactions, whether good or bad, for all of our actions.

Later in life when I moved away from my friends and family, I realized that there was more to life than showing up to the next party and trying to chase down the next "temporary happiness." I found that when isolated, reflection on one's life seems almost inevitable because there is no one influencing your thoughts or actions. It is a time of peace when you can discover your mind unlocking the truth about life and the happiness that we all try to obtain. It was during this time that I found my long lost faith buried deep in my soul, suppressed by everyday distractions that desire us to be blind to the Truth. For a long time these distractions succeeded and I focused my life completely on myself and my desires. Little did I know that there was someone out there desperately calling me back to them for my own sake and not theirs. When we imagine earthly kings, we see people sitting on a throne ruling their kingdom drunk with power and concern for themselves and their bloodline. But what I found was a King who cares only for others and longs to save them from themselves. I found my Savior Jesus Christ.

Ever since I re-established my relationship with Christ, I have been walking the narrow road, often straying and realizing the difficulties in being his disciple (if I dare to call myself that). My every intention is to mold my life to a life worthy of his love and consideration, yet I know that no matter how I live my life I can not achieve this goal. It is by Grace alone that salvation comes to us. We can not earn it, we just need to have truly repentant hearts and Faith in what God has promised us.